Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Tell me how you really feel!

Well, the great spaghetti challenge didn't go so well. You can read about it here. This whole thing is starting to really piss me off. I struggled for so long as a single mom to make sure my kids were fed. I worked 2 jobs and sometimes even 3 to make sure that there was food on the table. I feel like ED is mocking me by starving my daughter. She starts therapy tomorrow night. We are starting out with a "master clinician". If she doesn't feel like she can help us we will move onto a psycologist. I hate ED, hate the worry, hate the fact that a size 0 swallows my child whole. Hate that she weighed 88 pounds yesterday and probably less today. Hate being helpless. Hate that I have to be medicated, myself, just to cope. I hate it all.

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  1. Oh my, I just got myself caught up after my computer hiatus...what to say...

    I think you are doing okay, and after reading Kylee's post she is too. You guys are coping the best you can. I'm so glad to hear you saying you're mad at ED and not Kylee, put your feelings on the disease and put your love into Kylee. My love and support are always here for both of you.

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  2. Just get angry!!!! I am too and I am scared to death, as you are. We will continue to love her and support her all the way. Daddy and I love you both so much,and it hurts to have to watch both of you in so much pain.

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  3. Denise, I am so sorry today was a bad one. I am always here for you. Love you!

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  4. Oh Miss!!!!! How scared, frustrated and upset you must be!!!! Keep taking it one day at a time! God Bless you all

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  5. I think the really good/great thing is that you are able to work on this TOGETHER. You should be very proud that you have developed such a great realtionship with your daughter, and that you can talk about it. Together, you will get through this.

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