Monday, January 11, 2010
3 steps back
Today I went to the doctor with Kylee for a checkup. When we went back, I told the nurse that Kylee did NOT want to know her weight. So, she turned around backwards on the scale, the nurse wrote down her weight, and all was good. We went to the exam room and the nurse took her temperature and blood pressure. I asked about her blood pressure, which was still low but the same as last time, and then the nurse told her that she had gained 2 pounds. Dangit! She has anorexia, she knows how much she weighed last time we were there! Why, why, why??!!?? I could just see her confidence of the last few days start to diminish. I tried to explain that this was a good thing. Of course, part of her brain knows this, the part that is Kylee. But the other part of her brain, the ED part, had her in a puddle of tears. Those 2 stupid (wonderful!) pounds had ripped away all of the good mood and positive-ness that had been the Kylee of the past weekend. It truly pissed me off! But I have to remember that there will be days like this. I just have to accept it. Even if I don't want to. And I DON'T want to!
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Can you ask the doctor to put a note in her chart to not discuss the patients weight at all! Don't know if it would help. I would mention it everytime though! Just keep on keepin on! Thinking about you girls! I'm happy for those two pounds so take that ED!!!
ReplyDeleteSometimes I wonder why people in the medical profession seem so uncaring/unconcerned about their role in a patient's life. They should be fully engaged and present. I know exactly how your daughter felt, and how hard it is to regroup...it takes time to reprogram our brains to accept a new vision of ourselves. I am very proud of you Denise for stepping up and being there for your daughter, not all parents do that.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you were there with me today, Momma. I can't imagine how I would've coped without you. It's stupid really; I knew I had gained that exact amount since the last time they weighed me. But I had pushed it out of my mind; it was sort of like a slap in the face :(
ReplyDeleteHang in there our two lovely ladies!!! ed had his way with that nurse as well, SHE spilled the beans for ed. You are both super-duper ladies and will win in the end!!!! Just keep on keeping on! We love you both and are very proud of you! Daddy and Mom
ReplyDeleteYou would think that the nurse would be alot more sensitive and educated on this subject! I don't blame you for being frustrated...but look, she's starting to overpower ED, by two pounds!
ReplyDeleteGRRRR! So frustrating. Praying for both of you!
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Oh, frustrating!!! So sorry that happened. Sometimes you wonder where in the world people's brains are.
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