Wednesday, January 6, 2010

One big contradiction

You know what is hard? (Like this whole thing isn't the hardest thing that I have ever dealt with? Huh!) While I am trying (trying is the key word here!) to deal with Kylee's ED, I am on Weight Watchers. How messed up is that? I'm trying to get her to stop measuring everything that goes into her mouth while I am measuring everything that goes into mine. Trying to get her to forget the numbers while at the same time, I am all about the numbers (gotta love those points!). This whole thing is nothing but a freaking contradiction. So, what do I do? Do I give up MY efforts to take care of her? I can't. I still have to take care of myself in order to take care of her. Besides, food is my drug of choice. And I definitely can't go back to that! See how it complicates everything? I'm as messed up as she is!

6 comments:

  1. I don't think you are messed up. What's messed up is the condition that Kylee is trying to overcome! From the sounds of it, you are both trying to become healthy. I think that you can show her measuring can be done in a healthy way. Ugh! I can see how this can be frustrating and confusing for the both of you!

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  2. When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let
    go, only 1 of 2 things will happen - either He'll catch you when you fall,
    or He'll teach you how to fly!
    The power of one sentence!
    God is going to shift things around for you today and let things work in your favor.
    God closes doors no man can open & God opens doors no man can close.
    ~ Love you bunches my BFF ~

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  3. You know, I was thinking about this yesterday. I don't think it will be detrimental to my recovery at all. We both have to do what we need to in order to get ourselves healthy, what we've got to do just happen to be pretty opposite.

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  4. How utterly ironic!!!! But you're right...you have to take care of yourself to be able to take care of Kylee. Fresh air always helps to clear my head too!

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  5. You both need to learn the put the proper amount of food into your bodies...right? Same track, mom, I think you are each others support!

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  6. Denise:
    Just read about your family struggle and wanted you to know that I am praying for you! We were friends with a family who went through this very thing with their daughter a few years back. After much counseling, and family support, prayers, and lots of love, she came through healthier and stronger than ever. Now she is happily married with a little one and another on the way. If you ever need anything please lean on your friends, we all love you and support you. Take care sweetie!

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